Had a Bad Night!!!

Had a horrid night. It has been a long time since I was in jail and I really don't want to experience that again for quite some time. Anyway I am to tired and hungry to blog tonight. I will be back tomorrow. Another episode in my oh so twisted life!

Physical Therapy

Went to the doctor today. Elbow is still healing. It looks like 3 weeks of physical therapy and I should be back to work. No surgery!! Yeah, yeah, yeah! (as I do a little jig) Today's poetry entry.

Where Is My Life?

My past is something of a disaster

I have learned all the trades to be a master

Of depression, anxiety and despair

It makes me wonder if I truly care

About myself and where I'm going

About my friends and who I am joining

I look at all the influence

And wonder if it is all coincidence

That my life makes absolutely no sense

It is hard to try and live

When all you do is give

To everyone that steps in between

A life that is broken down

Without even a dream

I wonder if I will ever feel clean

But then again

What the fuck does that mean?

Written by Dawner 8-25-93

Till Today

I am back, it has been an awful hard month. I have been off work since April 4th. I had surgery about 3 years ago on my arm. It was called Ulnar Neuropathy surgery. It was very painful but I got through it. Now I am having very similar problems with my other arm and have been off work due to these problems. I go back to the doctor on Tuesday to see what is next.

So I don't mean to be missing you all so much.

Till Today

Ive seen what they call the promise land

Ive walked alone with the devil in my hand

All I need is just a plan

To get myself back in the swing

To wear the world as my golden ring

Its hard to begin from scratch

With no one as your match

But I will get along

Ill do o.k.

Let me tell you this

Ive made it till today

Written by Dawner 4-18-93