Graduation

I never thought this day would come but it did and I am so very happy. Last week my oldest boy graduated from high school.

For those of you that don't know my son. He has been quite the handful for many years. In more trouble then out of trouble for most of his life. He began his teenage age years the same as I did. HELL BENT! Yet by some miracle in his mid teens he started to see the light. Which had to have been blinding I think in order for him to see it. I wish I had known where to find it along time ago, the past years may have been a bit easier on both of us.

I will never forget the day my son came home and told me that he wanted to drop out of school. My heart dropped to the floor. What made that moment in my life feel even lower was to hear the words that followed. My son was walking in my foot steps only 15 years later. He then said, "You didn't finish school mom and you are doing fine.". That one seemed to be a kick in the face. See he was totally right about me not finishing school.

I was young when I got pregnant with him. This was before they had parenting classes in schools. I was pretty much pushed out of my school. There were 2 girls in my high school that were pregnant and I was told that I could go to school only till I began to show, then I would need to go else where. Meaning the alternative high school that we had in our town. It was founded mostly for the kids that were considered "problem kids'. I didn't want to go there because I was trying to rid myself of a lot of the bad influences in my life. By going there I would have been right back in the crowd I was trying to get out of.

After many talks with my son about how important his education is he slowly keep himself on track. I am so very proud of him and now he is talking with me about going to college. He still says he wants to be like me but I think he is seeing also that you have to give things time before making any decisions. I told him I was so very proud of the man he is becoming. When I started to think about it I was also proud of myself for all that we have been through together. We are still learning.

I was so worried about making his the best that he ended up making mine better. My son gave me a present and I would like to share it with you.

Mother O' Mine

If I were hung on the highest hill

Mother O' Mine, Oh Mother of Mine

I know who's love would follow me still

Mother O' Mine, Oh Mother of Mine

If I were drowned in the deepest of seas

Mother O' Mine, Oh Mother of Mine

I know who's tears would come down to me

Mother O' Mine, Oh Mother of Mine

If I were damned by body and soul

I know whose prayers would make me whole

Mother O' Mine, Oh Mother of Mine

Written by my incredible son: Alan

Falling From Grace

I pray for the love

That has falling from grace

The tears left behind

Won't wash from my face

I'm left with all these feelings

But nothing fills the space

Of the love that once was

That has fallen from grace

Every little picture

That's hanging on the wall

Every little trace of you

I have found them all

I close my eyes

It's all I can do

Everywhere I look I see some part of you

Been through all the reasons

And they all seem to fit

No ones pleaded guilty now

There's nothing to admit

There's no one to blame baby

Once you believe

Coz people only touch and go

But love will never leave!

Author Unknown