I Don't Know Where to Start!!!

What can I say...I guess this art says it well. It is my nature. In the last month I have been a bitch, a lover, a saint, a star, pathetic, hopeless, lonely, loved, hated, admired, thrown away, brought to light, asleep, awake, sad, happy, moved, touched, stabbed in the back and let's not forget used. Yeah I think for the most part that sums it up. Yes I am glad to back on the web. I missed my place here. I have also missed all of the friends I have made blogging. I want to say I went through a gray area in my life but that would not even be close. It was the blackest, deepest hellhole I could have ever imagined. I was seeing someone that I thought was something, but they turned into a controlling lord of relationships. Ok you all know the kind! I myself after 31 years of life was dumb enough to let this person control me. I know for those that know me it is rather unbelieveable. Well it took me about a month to figure out that this person was using me to ease his own insecurities in life. That was the easy part. I knew that he was not going to be the type of person to just let me out of the relationship without a HUGE arguement, that I really can't stand. More then anything in the world. So I played the bitch and ended it. No phone call no explanation no nothing. Just done. I went through a weekend of 3 days with 64 phone calls on my caller ID from him. When that didn't work he showed up at my door I don't know how many times. I woke up one morning to post it notes all over my door. He had it stuck in his head that I was, getting back with my ex and that I was on drugs. Ok for one there is no way I would get back with my ex. For two, I don't want to do drugs that was episode 15 in my life and I try not to play re-runs. Low and behold I think that he has gotten the clue and I haven't heard from him except that my messenger is full of offline messages. I will probably be hearing from him on here soon. I hope not. It has been almost a month since I have seen him and I am now seeing someone new that is really a great guy. I'm not going to go into the details of that because I think my personal life will stay with in my home and not on my computer. I am now on vacation from school till the 10th of October so I am taken it ease and relaxing until then. One more term of school down. All I can keep telling myself is that it will end soon and I will be done. Yeah me!!!! Later